May 18, 2009
I have to say that I have been through many things since I last posted. I am becoming more and more real with myself and to self-evaluate. I am humbled by my findings. I realized that unless you are living in the world, you can’t really measure how far you have come along. I have been living in a fort. I have built this fort around myself for protection. I have only allowed myself to interact with people at my church and even those at a distance to some degree. I interact with my family, but most of them live 350 miles away from me. I have friends back home that I still see and some friends that I have here, but I have kept a guard over my heart for the most part especially with the opposite sex.
I have been recently reacquainted with an old friend. He and I have gotten to know each other again and we love and respect each other. We have become great friends and I hope that we will always be able to remain as such. Through much conversation we have learned to be honest, kind, but honest. I have grown-up a lot. I have had to take off the many masks that I hide behind and just be myself. I have learned that who I am even with all of my flaws is okay. I don’t know about you, but I have never really accepted who I am. I have always been very accepting of others. I love people even with all of their flaws, but I have not been able to give that same grace to myself.
I am really excited about who I am becoming. I will not take the credit for this journey and where it has taken me, I give all the glory unto God and God alone. It is through Him that I move and have my being. I have had a really close relationship with the Lord for many years. I have had the honor of going to bible school and to study His word at great depths. I have a personal relationship with Jesus. I talk to Him each day, some days more than others. I worship and praise Him, and I pray and spend time listening to Him. He has brought me to a place in my life that I can look even deeper within myself and really learn to love and accept myself as the person that He created me to be. You know it’s not an easy thing to do that or at least it has not been for me.
We are supposed to love our neighbor as we love ourselves, and I dare say that many of us have not really learned to love ourselves yet much less our neighbor, If Jesus died for us when we were yet sinners, which He did according to His Word, then He loves us just as we are. He wants us to accept that He loves us and in order to do this we have to accept and love ourselves. I know that this is deep for a blog entry, but I wanted to give you food for thought. We are not just in this world to be, we are here in this world to become and I am becoming…
Monday, May 18, 2009
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
April 15, 2009
How do I approach this subject? I’m not sure what is going on with me today. I just feel weak and sort of sick at my stomach and my knee feels weird. I know that I just need to recognize the enemy and his tactics. He is interested in robbing me of my joy. The joy of the Lord is my strength. I will not be moved with how I feel. I declare in the name of Jesus that I am in perfect health. Every fiber of my being has to line-up with the Word of God. I am in divine health! I am sure that the enemy is not happy with my “renewed self “coming forth. I am so certain that God has a plan for me that will blow my socks off. I am so excited about all the possibilities. I love God, He is so awesome to me. I love to sit and watch Him work-out His plan. I have come a long way to just enjoy watching His plan unfold in my life. I used to always have to be actively trying to fix things for Him as if He didn’t know what needed to be done. I thank Him for this revelation. I have spent so much time trying to fix things that were not my business to be fixing. I am truly free! You know that is what happens when we spend time in the presence of the Almighty God. He frees us from all bondage. He is in the business of setting the captives free. I am thrilled to be released from any unnecessary chains that have had me bound. My God is an awesome God, He still reigns and will forevermore!
How do I approach this subject? I’m not sure what is going on with me today. I just feel weak and sort of sick at my stomach and my knee feels weird. I know that I just need to recognize the enemy and his tactics. He is interested in robbing me of my joy. The joy of the Lord is my strength. I will not be moved with how I feel. I declare in the name of Jesus that I am in perfect health. Every fiber of my being has to line-up with the Word of God. I am in divine health! I am sure that the enemy is not happy with my “renewed self “coming forth. I am so certain that God has a plan for me that will blow my socks off. I am so excited about all the possibilities. I love God, He is so awesome to me. I love to sit and watch Him work-out His plan. I have come a long way to just enjoy watching His plan unfold in my life. I used to always have to be actively trying to fix things for Him as if He didn’t know what needed to be done. I thank Him for this revelation. I have spent so much time trying to fix things that were not my business to be fixing. I am truly free! You know that is what happens when we spend time in the presence of the Almighty God. He frees us from all bondage. He is in the business of setting the captives free. I am thrilled to be released from any unnecessary chains that have had me bound. My God is an awesome God, He still reigns and will forevermore!
Thursday, April 9, 2009
April 8, 2009
Ain’t love grand! I feel your love reaching out to me through the miles. There is really no distance between us. Love is not bound by distance. I f we are in Christ and He is in us then we are all a part of His body. We can’t possibly be dismembered. I can’t express how much that you mean to me. There is no limit to this love for God is love, He is the source. Sometimes, I just have to pinch myself to make sure that His love is real. He promises to never leave me or forsake me, and I can truly attest to that. I have never been alone. I can’t always feel the presence of Him, but I know by faith that His Spirit goes where I go. I see all the signs of His majestic presence all around me. The beauty of the skies, the trees, the flowers, the sweet sound of the birds in the air all keep me in remembrance of His glory. He defines beauty, He is the sweetest perfume. When I think on these things, I feel the peace that goes beyond understanding all around me. I am engulfed by it. There is no place else that I want to be. I have no desire to talk but just to listen in hopes that He will speak to me. Each word changes me life. I go from glory to glory to glory.
I can just be who I am, and I find that so refreshing. I just can be me and that‘s enough. The world puts so much pressure on us to measure up to its standard. God has His own standard. He created us to be who we are and for us to walk out the path that He has placed before us. We have no need of comparing ourselves with each other, He made each one of us a unique design. He crafted each of us out of His love. We must be perfect in His eyes, even with all of our imperfections… God is love and He loves each of us.
Ain’t love grand! I feel your love reaching out to me through the miles. There is really no distance between us. Love is not bound by distance. I f we are in Christ and He is in us then we are all a part of His body. We can’t possibly be dismembered. I can’t express how much that you mean to me. There is no limit to this love for God is love, He is the source. Sometimes, I just have to pinch myself to make sure that His love is real. He promises to never leave me or forsake me, and I can truly attest to that. I have never been alone. I can’t always feel the presence of Him, but I know by faith that His Spirit goes where I go. I see all the signs of His majestic presence all around me. The beauty of the skies, the trees, the flowers, the sweet sound of the birds in the air all keep me in remembrance of His glory. He defines beauty, He is the sweetest perfume. When I think on these things, I feel the peace that goes beyond understanding all around me. I am engulfed by it. There is no place else that I want to be. I have no desire to talk but just to listen in hopes that He will speak to me. Each word changes me life. I go from glory to glory to glory.
I can just be who I am, and I find that so refreshing. I just can be me and that‘s enough. The world puts so much pressure on us to measure up to its standard. God has His own standard. He created us to be who we are and for us to walk out the path that He has placed before us. We have no need of comparing ourselves with each other, He made each one of us a unique design. He crafted each of us out of His love. We must be perfect in His eyes, even with all of our imperfections… God is love and He loves each of us.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
On the receiving end of love…
How do we recognize love? It comes in so many different packages. Love is a gift form God for God is love. I prayed and I prepared myself for an encounter with You having no idea that the plan was already written for what was about to happen. First, I found myself talking with you then I found myself listening to you as you spoke healing words to my heart. Needless to say I cried. I always cry when we meet. Your love amazes me! You always know exactly what I need and in what ever form that I need it, and it is always the exact right time. You are an answered prayer. You amaze me. I can’t ever imagine life without you. At one moment my heart is opened and in the next moment you take away all the hurt, all the brokenness. I am overwhelmed with you. I am engulfed in your love. At the time I wasn’t sure that I would reach my destination, but you had a plan and a purpose. I drove in on a prayer and landed safely.
I had no idea what was about to happen, talking about preparing a place, you certainly did. Your servant was on standby, waiting for my arrival. I was blown out of the water. You nursed my wounds, you fed me, you gave me shelter. You loved me. We laughed, we cried, we sang, we danced, we loved. That is the best description that I can come-up with. You loved me enough to lead me to still waters, to restore my soul. Just when I was thinking, "I got this," you let me know that truly I am not in control. I am learning to trust you. I am beginning to realize that you know what I need even better than I myself. I am trusting you.
I thought that I had already worked this thing out, but I am not sure at this moment that I know much at all. I have studied, I have prepared, I am becoming, but I have yet to become. I am beginning to learn that loving is more than giving, loving is receiving…
I have been purposing to learn what love is and how to give it. I never realized until the last couple of days that I don’t know how to receive. It is better to give than to receive, this is truth, but when you can’t receive you are not allowing others to give.
Lord, I pray that you will teach me to receive. I need You so much…
How do we recognize love? It comes in so many different packages. Love is a gift form God for God is love. I prayed and I prepared myself for an encounter with You having no idea that the plan was already written for what was about to happen. First, I found myself talking with you then I found myself listening to you as you spoke healing words to my heart. Needless to say I cried. I always cry when we meet. Your love amazes me! You always know exactly what I need and in what ever form that I need it, and it is always the exact right time. You are an answered prayer. You amaze me. I can’t ever imagine life without you. At one moment my heart is opened and in the next moment you take away all the hurt, all the brokenness. I am overwhelmed with you. I am engulfed in your love. At the time I wasn’t sure that I would reach my destination, but you had a plan and a purpose. I drove in on a prayer and landed safely.
I had no idea what was about to happen, talking about preparing a place, you certainly did. Your servant was on standby, waiting for my arrival. I was blown out of the water. You nursed my wounds, you fed me, you gave me shelter. You loved me. We laughed, we cried, we sang, we danced, we loved. That is the best description that I can come-up with. You loved me enough to lead me to still waters, to restore my soul. Just when I was thinking, "I got this," you let me know that truly I am not in control. I am learning to trust you. I am beginning to realize that you know what I need even better than I myself. I am trusting you.
I thought that I had already worked this thing out, but I am not sure at this moment that I know much at all. I have studied, I have prepared, I am becoming, but I have yet to become. I am beginning to learn that loving is more than giving, loving is receiving…
I have been purposing to learn what love is and how to give it. I never realized until the last couple of days that I don’t know how to receive. It is better to give than to receive, this is truth, but when you can’t receive you are not allowing others to give.
Lord, I pray that you will teach me to receive. I need You so much…
Monday, March 16, 2009
Never Alone Monday, March 16, 2009
I’m not sure what I am feeling tonight. I feel really empty or alone. I know that I am never alone because the word says that Jesus never leaves me or forsakes me. I know that word is true. I have been enjoying a new found relationship. I have some really good friends, and I know that we all need a friends. I guess that I have not been spending the proper amount of time with you, Lord. I know that in the past when I start feeling that empty feeling inside that I have not been with you often enough.
Help me Lord to not replace you with anything or anybody. I love my friends and I love to talk to people, but I have to talk to you and allow you to refill me, I get empty when I pour-out and don’t take time to get filled-up. I so appreciate that you are reminding me of this at this moment. The devil will always come to put thoughts into our minds if we allow him the opportunity. I know so very well what his tactics are. He has used them so many times on me and I have fallen into the same trap more than once.
This time Lord, because You love me so much and I have spent enough time with you, I know better. I could have gone to bed tonight and cried because of the way that I was feeling, but instead I felt an urging to write something and little did I know when I sat down that you had a message for me. I love you Jesus, and I just want to say thank you for being mindful of me as always. Help me come to you each day and get a refilling of the living water that only you can give. Keep me close to you, Lord, just where I need to be from this day forward and each day in the future until that glorious day that we meet each other face to face.
Bonnee
Help me Lord to not replace you with anything or anybody. I love my friends and I love to talk to people, but I have to talk to you and allow you to refill me, I get empty when I pour-out and don’t take time to get filled-up. I so appreciate that you are reminding me of this at this moment. The devil will always come to put thoughts into our minds if we allow him the opportunity. I know so very well what his tactics are. He has used them so many times on me and I have fallen into the same trap more than once.
This time Lord, because You love me so much and I have spent enough time with you, I know better. I could have gone to bed tonight and cried because of the way that I was feeling, but instead I felt an urging to write something and little did I know when I sat down that you had a message for me. I love you Jesus, and I just want to say thank you for being mindful of me as always. Help me come to you each day and get a refilling of the living water that only you can give. Keep me close to you, Lord, just where I need to be from this day forward and each day in the future until that glorious day that we meet each other face to face.
Bonnee
Saturday, March 14, 2009
What is a Friend?
What is a Friend?
A friend is one that you can always be yourself with and never have to worry that they won’t approve of who you are. A friend knows when to laugh with you and also when to laugh at you. They are, at least for the most part, available for you if you want to share the good or the bad and If for some reason they aren’t, you know beyond a shadow of a doubt that if they could have been there for you, that they would have. A real friend is almost like a second skin. They help you to redirect your thinking if you find yourself on the wrong track, but they do it in such a way that you don’t even feel the pain of being wrong in the first place. They always have a word of encouragement. When they say something you can always expect that it will propel you into a better position. You look forward to every conversation that you have with them because you know that the both of you will come-out better for the time spent. Something else about a true friend is that you can always pick-up where you left off, no matter how much time passes.
I can truly say that you are all of the above and more! Reuniting with you has been a pivotal point in my life. I am suddenly feeling a desire to get-up in the morning, just to see how much I can accomplish in a day that I can tell you about. You have helped me come to life, to want to dream, to want to accomplish all that God has placed in my heart. I will be forever grateful for you as my friend because of the role that you have been called to play. I am beginning to believe in my ability to be the person that God created me to be. This I dare say is due to the fact that you love me with the love of Jesus, for who I am and you validate me from whence I came and even the road that I’ve had to travel to get to where I am at this moment. I just want to thank you from the very depth of my heart and I pray that I will be used in your life in such a way that you can also say that I have also had an impact on you and yours. I love you with the love that comes straight from God for as you and I know that is who He is!
Only God can make a friend for every good and perfect gift comes from above…
James 1:17
Please Note: If this describes a friend of yours, please feel free to copy and send it to them.
A friend is one that you can always be yourself with and never have to worry that they won’t approve of who you are. A friend knows when to laugh with you and also when to laugh at you. They are, at least for the most part, available for you if you want to share the good or the bad and If for some reason they aren’t, you know beyond a shadow of a doubt that if they could have been there for you, that they would have. A real friend is almost like a second skin. They help you to redirect your thinking if you find yourself on the wrong track, but they do it in such a way that you don’t even feel the pain of being wrong in the first place. They always have a word of encouragement. When they say something you can always expect that it will propel you into a better position. You look forward to every conversation that you have with them because you know that the both of you will come-out better for the time spent. Something else about a true friend is that you can always pick-up where you left off, no matter how much time passes.
I can truly say that you are all of the above and more! Reuniting with you has been a pivotal point in my life. I am suddenly feeling a desire to get-up in the morning, just to see how much I can accomplish in a day that I can tell you about. You have helped me come to life, to want to dream, to want to accomplish all that God has placed in my heart. I will be forever grateful for you as my friend because of the role that you have been called to play. I am beginning to believe in my ability to be the person that God created me to be. This I dare say is due to the fact that you love me with the love of Jesus, for who I am and you validate me from whence I came and even the road that I’ve had to travel to get to where I am at this moment. I just want to thank you from the very depth of my heart and I pray that I will be used in your life in such a way that you can also say that I have also had an impact on you and yours. I love you with the love that comes straight from God for as you and I know that is who He is!
Only God can make a friend for every good and perfect gift comes from above…
James 1:17
Please Note: If this describes a friend of yours, please feel free to copy and send it to them.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Friday the 13th...what's the big deal?
Friday, the 13th... the 12th, the 7th who cares...personally, I don't have a supersticious bone in my body. I just don't believe in such as that. I have had a simply wonderful day today, but I am thrilled that today is Friday "the something"!
I have been on spring break this week along with my students at MTSU! I know that I have gotten some much needed rest and have had the time to set-up this blog as well as getting to some other business that needed my attention! On Monday, I will be back on campus to finish-out the semester. I have trully missed interacting with my students. I really like people and I like spending time with and helping them.
I am so thankful that spring is in the air again. We have had a few colder days lately, but this next week should be great! I don't have alot more to say, but I do hope that you have a wonderful weekend! Remember to take time to be with those that you love and let's make each day count for something!
Love to you,
Bonnee
I have been on spring break this week along with my students at MTSU! I know that I have gotten some much needed rest and have had the time to set-up this blog as well as getting to some other business that needed my attention! On Monday, I will be back on campus to finish-out the semester. I have trully missed interacting with my students. I really like people and I like spending time with and helping them.
I am so thankful that spring is in the air again. We have had a few colder days lately, but this next week should be great! I don't have alot more to say, but I do hope that you have a wonderful weekend! Remember to take time to be with those that you love and let's make each day count for something!
Love to you,
Bonnee
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Bonnee Life, Ministry, Music...
I am coming on board for the first time! I am very excited about all of the things that are going on! I wear many hats...motherhood, ministry, teaching, recording and writing songs, writing and publishing books to name a few! I look forward to sharing my life with you!
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